Do I still have a shot with him?
To do a quick summary, bf (of 10 months) at the time broke up with me (1 month ago) after we went on a break (he asked for the break) for 1 week. We were ldr and he said the distance was too much and it killed me to have him leave, we're still friends but he "moved on" and he's stuck with some crazy girl who he said is crazy and has found his socials, despite this he's flirting with me and he said he didn't mean it?
After that revelation there's been some tension/unknown emotions, indirect flirting, flirty Instagram reels, lewdish messages between us. And he's made a Playlist with love songs despite not being together? Like do I still try? I told friends and they said he definitely still likes me and misses me but turns out he doesn't :\
We still talk a LOT and vc every day but I think our autism just complicates things, my friends and I think that my ex is lying bcz he's scared to show emotions, and think he's playing dumb. (he was my first real relationship and first kiss so I'm still very bent on having another shot with him)
Like I can't stand the idea of him dating another person it makes me violently sick to my stomach, I feel rage and sadness, at times I want to block or ignore and then one day later I'm fine and happy. I can't just cut him off, he's my only real friend. Idk if he cares about me but I still love him so much despite his flaws, I was planning on visiting him soon and living near him in a year or two but that fell apart since the breakup and being unemployed, I still want to see him but also why should I travel 400 miles just to be with a friend who sent very flirty messages and said it was nothing??
He said he might give me a shot but "he doesn't give second chances"? Like what :c we broke up on good terms but it sounds like he hates me, one been trying to cope with this for a month now and it feels as if I have no goal in life, we were guiding each other to better lives away from our shitty family but it's all dust now.
All the love songs, messages saying "No matter what happens I'll be with you", the dates and kisses just mean nothing to him I guess.
Should I still try and see if I have a shot? We're both adults and I have nothing going for me here at home.
Sorry for the messy post just trying to find some guidance :c, I can clear up anything in the comments.
To do a quick summary, bf (of 10 months) at the time broke up with me (1 month ago) after we went on a break (he asked for the break) for 1 week. We were ldr and he said the distance was too much and it killed me to have him leave, we're still friends but he "moved on" and he's stuck with some crazy girl who he said is crazy and has found his socials, despite this he's flirting with me and he said he didn't mean it?
After that revelation there's been some tension/unknown emotions, indirect flirting, flirty Instagram reels, lewdish messages between us. And he's made a Playlist with love songs despite not being together? Like do I still try? I told friends and they said he definitely still likes me and misses me but turns out he doesn't :\
We still talk a LOT and vc every day but I think our autism just complicates things, my friends and I think that my ex is lying bcz he's scared to show emotions, and think he's playing dumb. (he was my first real relationship and first kiss so I'm still very bent on having another shot with him)
Like I can't stand the idea of him dating another person it makes me violently sick to my stomach, I feel rage and sadness, at times I want to block or ignore and then one day later I'm fine and happy. I can't just cut him off, he's my only real friend. Idk if he cares about me but I still love him so much despite his flaws, I was planning on visiting him soon and living near him in a year or two but that fell apart since the breakup and being unemployed, I still want to see him but also why should I travel 400 miles just to be with a friend who sent very flirty messages and said it was nothing??
He said he might give me a shot but "he doesn't give second chances"? Like what :c we broke up on good terms but it sounds like he hates me, one been trying to cope with this for a month now and it feels as if I have no goal in life, we were guiding each other to better lives away from our shitty family but it's all dust now.
All the love songs, messages saying "No matter what happens I'll be with you", the dates and kisses just mean nothing to him I guess.
Should I still try and see if I have a shot? We're both adults and I have nothing going for me here at home.
Sorry for the messy post just trying to find some guidance :c, I can clear up anything in the comments.