i(35f) am disgusted by my husband (37m)

to keep it short, we have 3 kids, the youngest is 6 months. I was slightly overweight when my husband and I met when I was 26, and have steadily gained a few pounds every year since then. My husband is the same, slightly overweight and has steadily gained.

Over the last several months I have been trying really hard to lose weight and get healthy. I’m now below what I weighed when I met my husband and look pretty good.

Ever since this change, my husband seems happier, we have sex more, and he is generally nicer and more romantic with me.

This makes me literally hate him. I can’t stand behind around him and try so hard to pretend everything is ok. He says nice things to me or does nice things and I have to leave the room to go cry.

All of this is because I’ve lost weight. I’m so so devastated that he’s treating me so differently. I feel like he never really loved me.

My feelings for him have been the same no matter what hjs weight was. Idk, I just don’t know how to get over this or if I ever can?