Feeling unbearably lonely, no friends at all – suicidal thoughts (M25)

Hey everyone,

I don’t know how much longer I can keep going like this. I’m a 25-year-old guy living in Gurgaon/Delhi, and I have zero friends. Not just "not many"—literally none. I go entire days without talking to a single person. No one to text, no one to make plans with, no one who would even notice if I disappeared. The loneliness is crushing me to the point where I’ve been having suicidal thoughts.

I don’t even think about relationships anymore. At this point, I’d even take being friendzoned, being used for favors—anything would be better than this complete isolation. At least then, I’d have some form of human connection.

The stress and loneliness are breaking me down, mentally and physically. My cortisol levels must be through the roof. I’m training at the gym and eating a high-protein diet, but the lack of sleep and constant stress are making my body store fat instead of building muscle. It feels like even the things I try to improve are working against me.

Also, please don’t suggest therapy—I do plan on doing it once I’m financially stable and in a better position, but right now, it’s just not an option. I’m still in the education system, preparing for competitive exams from home, and barely managing things as it is. I need practical ways to meet people and actually form connections, not a “just go to therapy” response.

I’ve tried putting myself out there—going to the gym, attending social events, and joining online communities—but nothing clicks. People already have their own circles, and I feel invisible. I genuinely don’t know what else to do.

I’m not posting this for sympathy—I just don’t know where to turn. Has anyone else been in this position before? How do you break out of it? Are there actually ways to meet people in Gurgaon/Delhi who genuinely want friends and not just casual acquaintances?

If anyone is going through something similar or has any advice, I’d appreciate it. I just needed to get this out.