I hate my husband but I’m completely dependent on him

He is a good dad. He pays all the bills and I don’t have to worry about finances. We live in a huge 5 bedroom home that he owns. He’s very successful in his career and he’s very handsome.

I have a dead end degree. I’ve had 2 kids with him (which reduces my “market value” significantly apparently). I’m a stay at home mum so I have no savings. I’m not in good shape nor am I particularly good looking. I’m perpetually in £500 of debt, because that’s where he likes to keep me.

I’m just tired of being left to feel so inadequate. He complains that I’m dependent on him but that’s exactly what he wanted. I’m 11 years younger and we met when I was 17. I’ve never had a career, savings, he taught me financial literacy and I paid off every single penny of debt I owed in one year, before I moved in with him. Then I bought myself things and realised i need things but I have no money so I’m in £500 debt which he could easily completely pay off but won’t.

I can’t drive and live in the middle of no where so I’m constantly trapped at home. Started lessons but he never takes time off to watch the kids so I can’t finish them. I have no family and moved to be with him so have no friends inmy area that can watch my kids. He blames me for not being able to drive though.

I’m depressed and exhausted. Can’t leave because I have no support system and no money. Can’t leave the kids with him because he won’t be home to watch them and often has to travel for work. Can’t take them with me into homelessness and poverty. Also I love him. I just wish he gave me the life he promised.

He likes to call me things like “benefit scrounger” and tell me I wouldn’t even have a degree if not for him (I graded 98% in many of my assignments for uni, paid for uni myself, saved everything I needed for uni myself) (I’ve also never been on benefits)

I’ve had no personal growth since moving in with him and having kids. Been outside on my own only enough times to count on my hands.

I’m isolated. Tired. Have no hobbies. I’ve lost myself. And I hate seeing him grow from my sacrifices and not even have a kind word to say to me. He doesn’t even have sex with me anymore. He hates my temper but how do I emotionally regulate myself for him when I do it all day for toddlers who need me to? But he acts like a toddler and not a fully grown man and expects me to be nice?

Anything he gives me comes with the strings of I’m not grateful enough and without him is have nothing and he should’ve just not got me anything at all etcetc.

I’m tired of living this way. I’m tired of him. Is this fair?

Edit: Holy shit guys, I wrote this at early hours of the AM, fell asleep and completely forgot I wrote it and just went about life- logged into Reddit today and was confused by my notifications!! First of all, thank you for all the advice from people who have more to say than “just leave” Second of all, I’m so sorry for how many people can relate to this. But I’m grateful for your messages and comments and most of all grateful that there are people that truly understand what I’m going through. It’s really difficult to complain to people when objectively I live a good life with a roof over my head, hot water and food on the table etc.

I’ll try and read through all the comments, thank you guys