have I completely destroyed myself beyond saving?

I’ve been addicted to smoking, vaping, and masturbating for a while, and it feels like it’s taken a serious toll on me.

I’ve gotten so skinny that I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore—I just see a skeletal version of myself, and it’s messing with my head.

It’s like I’ve drained the life out of myself, and I don’t know if there’s any way back.

I don’t know where to start or how long it’ll take to feel normal again.