I'm confused

So I decided after a long that time I want to take up youtube as a genuine hobby make it like a passive income hopefully, I was hyped up and all then decided to invest on a little expensive mic to make quality a bit better than on a phone microphone and the mic which was way off my budget. I'm a college student so now after I bought it I feel demotivated thinking that I could do so much with that money like buy cloths and food for a whole month with it but instead I'm buying it for this false dream of hitting it to be a youtuber. Idk if this risk will work out.