does anybody else feel extremely childish during meltdowns?

i don’t know if this makes sense, but does anyone else feel “small” or “helpless” in bad episodes? i’ll find myself often lying in a fetus position trying to make myself as small as i can and wishing somebody would come by to hold me or tell me it’s okay in a motherly way. this is so embarrassing to me to talk about but i hate it it makes me feel so pathetic